no.1 of my attempts was at age 19, some years ago... with aspirin. 4 packages or so. approx 80 tablets. it caused a horrible headache and i could barely take the pain. it felt as though my skull was about to crack any moment. eventually, after about half an hour, i lost consciousness and ended up in a hospital. no lasting damages, as far as i can tell, remained. and also no certainty of whether this would have been fatal or not. take some meds against vomiting, if you plan on trying it yourself. it's painful, but not as painful as conventional hanging, drowning, stabbing or burning yourself. i failed and survived without any apparent damage. Geo Stone, the author of suicide and attampted suicide also mentions having tried aspirin, and obviously survived, with a brain healthy enough to write a book.
.
so although there's a considerable uncertainty as to whether you'll succeed, if you fail, you can try again.
just before i passed out, i vomited. thoroughly. all that was in my stomach made it to the outside. the urge to throw up is immense, some call what occurs "projectile vomiting". even with suppressive meds you might still be urged to express yourself in such a way. and use this peculiarity about aspirin overdoses to your advantage. with a gasmask on your head, a hose attached to it, and one of those horizontal fold flat odour mask or the surgical masks Michael Jackson used to wear attached/duct-taped at the other end of the hose, you could breathe air up untill the point your halfway digested food runs down the hose and covers all the pores of the paper tissue. if you happen to lose consciousness just after throwing up, like i did, you'd asphyxiate yourself unconsciously. if you won't pass out and the lack of oxygen starts to bother you, you can always take off the mask. to prevent a traumatic experience. in any case, aspirin overdoses, with or without mask, require you to be alone. or else you'd be rescued. the headache i felt was so painful i screamed, and alarmed my parents. they brought me to the hospital. i survived.
No comments:
Post a Comment